Sunday, May 23, 2004
Well work is still busy but I like being busy during the day... Not getting ALOT done at home though - I am exhausted by the time I get home... TG Mom is there to help w/the basics like picking up and laundry and dinner... Weds was my first "real" day off where I was home and OFF... I vegged/slept most of the day... Next/this week I hope to actually get out in the yard and get my flowerbeds back into shape...
The boys are doing ok... Dev is still have some serious problems at school but I have an appt the week after next to meet w/a therapist for him - wish us luck - it was hard to find a therapist that works w/children AND has appointments/room that aren't a minimum of 3 months out.... Overall we are doing ok...
E was up to his usual crap and then some lately but he's not going to be seeing the kids til atleast the end of June so hopefully the rest of the school will go well for Deven as I am sure that alot of his problems, anger, behavior are related to spending weekends w/Daddy... I won't even go into the crap now but it was getting downright nasty via phone between us for a bit... It just leaves me frustrated and emotionally drained and today is NOT the day for that...
Politics are NOT a good topic to start on a quiet sunday when you have a former military person and a VERY recently retired military person in the same room - it got very emotionally charged in here a bit ago and I just wanted to slink into the wall after it was I who helped start the conversation... *sigh*
Speaking of "picking at scabs" stealing a metaphor from my friend Sue seems to be a common topic of late and I have to agree w/Sue that I have learned not to pick but even I am tempted every now and again... And it would seems there are others that of like mind (Sue I hope I am associating your thoughts correctly as I think I understand what gave birth to your thoughts)... My thoughts are that I hope that the scab has well healed and is merely just a scar (to again steal from Sue) which will withstand the picking w/o too much disfigurement (metaphorically speaking of course)..
And speaking still of "scabs"... I watched the 9/11 Commission this past week and boy did it call up all sorts of emotions for me to relive that day again... And maybe I am of the strange sort but I will admit that I watched the Nick Berg video in it's entirety (I am just one of those odd sorts regarding gruesome for lack of a better word)... Now I am NOT condoning what those terroristic men did in any way and I am deeply sorry for Nick and his family as well as the Pearl family, not to mention all the of families of those that have been lost or hurt in the "Global War on Terrorism" (but my thoughts on THAT subject are another conversation) and please bear with me this subject isn't flowing as smoothly as I thought it would... but WHY are we up-playing the prisoner mistreatment BY us and downplaying the atrocities of the crimes AGAINST us?? Just seems that the publicity of the news these days is sorta one sided AGAINST the current administration (and YES I AM A FIRM BUSH SUPPORTER!)... Now again back to the 9/11 commission and the Nick Berg video - 1st the video on the net is so tiny and distorted that you can't really view it clearly (again I am NOT downplaying the horror of the subject matter) and the emotional response to the IMAGE is more from the knowledge of the subject matter then the actual image although the audio IS accurate and heartwretching but I had more of an emotional response.. I mean an actual physical emotional response to the reliving of 9/11 during the hearings this week - maybe it's because I feel more of an attachment to that day and those events then that poor young man - I don't know but I am just sharing MY thoughts/opinions on it all...
Well I have a few little things to do while it's nice and quiet compared to the weekday hours so I am signing off... Til next time...
The boys are doing ok... Dev is still have some serious problems at school but I have an appt the week after next to meet w/a therapist for him - wish us luck - it was hard to find a therapist that works w/children AND has appointments/room that aren't a minimum of 3 months out.... Overall we are doing ok...
E was up to his usual crap and then some lately but he's not going to be seeing the kids til atleast the end of June so hopefully the rest of the school will go well for Deven as I am sure that alot of his problems, anger, behavior are related to spending weekends w/Daddy... I won't even go into the crap now but it was getting downright nasty via phone between us for a bit... It just leaves me frustrated and emotionally drained and today is NOT the day for that...
Politics are NOT a good topic to start on a quiet sunday when you have a former military person and a VERY recently retired military person in the same room - it got very emotionally charged in here a bit ago and I just wanted to slink into the wall after it was I who helped start the conversation... *sigh*
Speaking of "picking at scabs" stealing a metaphor from my friend Sue seems to be a common topic of late and I have to agree w/Sue that I have learned not to pick but even I am tempted every now and again... And it would seems there are others that of like mind (Sue I hope I am associating your thoughts correctly as I think I understand what gave birth to your thoughts)... My thoughts are that I hope that the scab has well healed and is merely just a scar (to again steal from Sue) which will withstand the picking w/o too much disfigurement (metaphorically speaking of course)..
And speaking still of "scabs"... I watched the 9/11 Commission this past week and boy did it call up all sorts of emotions for me to relive that day again... And maybe I am of the strange sort but I will admit that I watched the Nick Berg video in it's entirety (I am just one of those odd sorts regarding gruesome for lack of a better word)... Now I am NOT condoning what those terroristic men did in any way and I am deeply sorry for Nick and his family as well as the Pearl family, not to mention all the of families of those that have been lost or hurt in the "Global War on Terrorism" (but my thoughts on THAT subject are another conversation) and please bear with me this subject isn't flowing as smoothly as I thought it would... but WHY are we up-playing the prisoner mistreatment BY us and downplaying the atrocities of the crimes AGAINST us?? Just seems that the publicity of the news these days is sorta one sided AGAINST the current administration (and YES I AM A FIRM BUSH SUPPORTER!)... Now again back to the 9/11 commission and the Nick Berg video - 1st the video on the net is so tiny and distorted that you can't really view it clearly (again I am NOT downplaying the horror of the subject matter) and the emotional response to the IMAGE is more from the knowledge of the subject matter then the actual image although the audio IS accurate and heartwretching but I had more of an emotional response.. I mean an actual physical emotional response to the reliving of 9/11 during the hearings this week - maybe it's because I feel more of an attachment to that day and those events then that poor young man - I don't know but I am just sharing MY thoughts/opinions on it all...
Well I have a few little things to do while it's nice and quiet compared to the weekday hours so I am signing off... Til next time...
